Eisley Antalya · Life · loss and heartache · mommahood · Pregnancy

Mourning into Joy 

I have the honour of being a part of a series called mourning into joy stories started by Sharon McKeeman (@sharonmckeeman on instagram #mourningintojoystories). As I began to write, I realized that there was more I wanted to share than a few sentences on instagram hence this blog post. I feel like sharing my own… Continue reading Mourning into Joy 

Eisley Antalya · Life

Finding the beauty beneath.

(May 2014) One year ago today we moved to Colorado Springs! And oh what a year it has been for our family! We spent time reflecting on the past year in “the Springs”, our new city and home – it has been uniquely beautiful, even though it wasn’t anything like we’d imagined. Jesus has been seeking… Continue reading Finding the beauty beneath.

Eisley Antalya · Life · loss and heartache

Lessons at the Royal Gorge.

(The Royal Gorge – photo by Ted) We’re facing some huge mountains and even deep valleys in our lives. (pun intended with this post, but I’m also quite serious) ‘The mountains’ being decisions we’re having to make and ‘the valleys’ representing the areas we have yet to face that we are afraid to, or “haven’t… Continue reading Lessons at the Royal Gorge.

Eisley Antalya · Life · loss and heartache · mommahood

The part where I gave up.

Until 2014, I have prided myself in being “adaptive”.  5.5 years ago I had our first baby after what (at the time, before having lost a baby) I felt was the worst birth/labor ever., 14 months later we lost our Eisley-girl, 14 months after that the birth of our surprise/gift Shailo, 28 months later we had… Continue reading The part where I gave up.

Eisley Antalya · Jami Joann · Life · loss and heartache · mommahood

Sharing Eisley (on sharing child loss)

This week Chase asked me about Eisley… again. His curious mind, wondering and trying to process things he either vaguely remembers, or things he’s heard and seen. Pictures, memorabilia, even the breakdowns I’ve had (that I can’t say I’m overly proud of). I remember before I had her as the fear of losing her became greater… Continue reading Sharing Eisley (on sharing child loss)

Eisley Antalya · Jami Joann · Life · loss and heartache · mommahood · Pregnancy

Pregnancy after loss: Where my feet may fail and fear surrounds me.

Above: Little Baby Davis #4, making his/her first appearance on the blog :) I thought it would be a little easier this time around. Being pregnant after loss and after having had another healthy pregnancy. I think at first, I felt it was easier. Maybe it was because even though we had tried for this… Continue reading Pregnancy after loss: Where my feet may fail and fear surrounds me.

Chase Journey · Eisley Antalya · Jami Joann · loss and heartache · mommahood · Shailo Valour

triggered trauma + declarations

{source} The past few weeks have been pretty trying for our family. “When it rains, it pours” describes it best, I think. So many things that were out of my control. Chase and Shailo somehow caught Whooping cough (Pertussis) … like an actual documented case. This was after learning Shailo had Pneumonia two days before… Continue reading triggered trauma + declarations