The title pretty much says a lot, but you know me; I’ve gotta explain every little detail :)
Weeks ago I talked about how the internet had become a way for me to cope or shut off from what I was feeling. I talked about how unhealthy it was for me and my grieving and my everyday life….and now I’ve completely swung to the other side.
I’ve “swung” from too much time spent online and away from my reality to almost no time online ever. It’s not that we are internet-less in our new home, in fact, the very day we officially moved in the internet guy came and hooked it up. I’ve just lost the desire (for the most part) to be online.
And can I just say (in most ways)… it’s felt so so so so so good to be off. And I can’t even believe I’m saying this ;) but the I don’t miss the social sites not even a tiny bit. I actually feel sick when I get on them, quite literally and I think I am learning balance in a really odd but super needed kinda way.
But I miss blogging and sharing and pouring my heart out (seriously) more and more every day. Something has been stirring up in my mind and heart so much lately and a few Sundays ago, on our hour and ten minute drive home from church, Ted and I were talking about it and so suddenly I felt to share on my blog. I guess you could say it’s kind of controversial a topic, but I feel it’s so worth it to share. My heart is oh so heavy!
I will share soon, I just want to get some really great quotes and verses together that I feel would fit perfectly. Just you wait. If you’re struggling with anything… I guess you could say, you’ve been on my heart :) I could be a blog just for YOU.
Thank you for popping in, checking on us and loving on me even despite my absence. I guess the “downfall” of realizing my unhealthy time online was that now I am facing my reality a lot more than I was (if that even makes sense). We’ve entered the 7 month since losing our sweet little Eisley-girl and my heart aches, maybe even more now than ever before. We’re doing okay, walking through a lot, taking everything day by day, minute by minute. Savouring memories all while making new ones, very bittersweet. I’ll be sharing on Tuesday about a date that’s very important to us regarding our precious daughter. :)
For now, I’ll leave you with an awesome picture Chase’s “Auntie Dee Dee” took of him just Friday.
I know I’ve said it many times before but this boy has a serious lover for music and an incredible rhythm! We’re already pouring into this little guy and his love. Can’t wait to see where it leads!