Eisley Antalya · Jami Joann · Life

‘I Will Carry You’

I am in awe and I had to share just how incredible our God is. I must share.

(You’ve may or may not have heard this part of our journey before…) Months ago I was on my way home from running errands. I heard this story on the radio that touched my heart deeply and caused me to have a much needed conversation with my God. That very evening I felt that God was preparing my heart for something big. I came home and told Ted about this conversation with God and what I felt. I even wrote it on my facebook status that very evening.

I wrote a blog in greater detail about that day here. Please read it because it pieces all of this together in the most beautiful, awesome way.

Yesterday, I recieved a package from a friend, of books she ordered from Amazon for me. She bought me 3 books, one titled ‘I Will Carry You’. I briefly looked over them but sat them down because since I’ve come home, nothing has satisfied me for very long. Hours later after I went from trying to surf the web to trying to watch tv to trying to journal what I am feeling to trying to eat, etc.  Nothing has been able to distract me from my pain, so I just didn’t even try to read one of the books.

Hours later, I finally decided to read the summary of the books. ‘I Will Carry You’ immediately captured my attention. I realized it was a story of a family who walked through the tragedy of losing their daughter and even despite knowing how hard it would be to read it, I began. Soon, I was as page 25 and realized in complete awe, I knew their story. This was the exact couple I had heard on the radio that evening as I headed home from errands. It was the exact couple whose incredible faith and trust drew me into hearing their story. It was the story that led me to talking with God and the very night he spoke to me about preparing my heart for something big.

I began crying as I told Ted about this miraculous and amazing thing. Iam still in awe. I mean, this was the story I had hear prior to beginning this journey and walk with my sweet Eisley. It was God preparing me, it really was. And now here I am with the very story that spoke to my heart, in my hands and not long after our tragedy.

This is God. This is my no means a coincidence. (I even wrote my friend and asked her if she knew when she bought the book. She didn’t have any idea.)

And just as I was beginning to feel like He’d left me, He does this, like He’s gently reminding me, “I’m still here, Jami”.

I’m already pretty far in the book and I told Ted I feel like someone reached deep inside my heart and mind and put it in a book. It’s so similar and how she describes how she felt during appointments and throughout the entire procress, made my heart ache in a very familar way. I will write more as I read it, but for now I just had to share how incredibly AWEsome our God is.

post edit; a friend just sent me this song the couple had written for their daughter. It touches my heart so deeply.

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12 thoughts on “‘I Will Carry You’

  1. That’s pretty awesome Jamie. And you are sort of doing the same thing as her with this blog. Who knows who will read this and and be comforted knowing you went through what they are going through. Thanks for being open with the world! It’s powerful.

  2. Wow Jami, God is awesome! I totally remember you writing that blog and status back then. Crazy to see where it has come. I love you girl. Still thinking and praying for you guys all the time!

  3. Angie has a beautiful story, an awesome faith and a gentle, loving spirit. I ‘met’ her when we found out we would be saying goodbye to my great nephew. God has used her and Todd to bring comfort and healing to many. God is so faithful! I pray for peace and healing for you and Ted. It is a long road.

    love, Karina

  4. Awe-mazing how God is with you, start to finish. Your story inspires me everyday. Taught me to have a huge heart for the ones around me, for strangers and for the strength to carry on. For the courage to stand up through difficult times and say that it only affirms your glorious faith in God. You were put in my life by Him, I believe. So thank you :) Stay strong Jami. We all love you. God is cradling in his arms precious Eisley.

  5. Jami, you are such an amazing woman. Such an inspiration! The song is so beautiful and tears filled my eyes upon hearing it. I pray for peace and healing for you and Ted. If you need anything I’m always here for you and always will be.
    love you friend!!

  6. I love hearing about God moments. You are in my prayers. I have walked this hard road and it is a day by day trial… but with God holding your hand it will be ok and even bring blessings. You will see. xoxo

  7. I think it is amazing that God used me to send this message to you. It was totally a God Wink. Sometimes when the Holy Spirit coaxes me to do something, I start to doubt that I am really hearing from Him. But this time…I knew. I cried tears of joy as I read this to my husband. It is such confirmation that God is here, right now and always.

    You are a true inspiration and you are honoring both Eisley and God by telling the story of her life. Opening yourself up is raw and painful I am sure, but you are ministering to others in a HUGE way. I am so proud of you and I am glad God connected us on Facebook, of all places. He is so good! Praying for you and yours.

    Under Grace, Cheryl “)

  8. Hi Jami,
    I was search the web for ideas night for a tattoo to represent my little sunshine, my son Zane who was born on the 29/11/2013 and went to be with our heavenly father on the 02/12/2013. I stumbled across a picture of your beautiful tattoo for your little princess Eisley. So I clicked through to your blog and read you blog wrote about it, then the story you wrote of your baby girl’s journey and to this one. Thank you, thank you for sharing. Hearing this is helping me to heal, my emotions are still very raw and God is working in mine and my husband’s hearts.
    We were gifted 2 books by our church and one of them was “I carry you” and the other was “Jesse found in heaven”. I’m ready to start ready them myself yet, but hearing that this book has helped you, encourages me.
    Thank you for you beautiful words and your brave heart!

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