If you haven’t already heard, I have now been admitted into the hospital for bedrest. I know many of you are wanting more details, so here they are.
At our appointment Monday with the fetal medicine specialist (fms) we found Eisley has only grown 5 days within the past two weeks. She is now severe intrauterine growth restriction (SIUGR). She is measuring 2 1/2 weeks behind in her head. 3 1/2 weeks behind in her abdomen and 5 1/2 weeks behind in her body. She only weighs 9 oz which means she’s only grown 1oz in the past 2 weeks. To get an idea of how far behind she is, a 24 week baby should be at least 1 lb 1/3. It’s amazing to me just how a few ounces doesn’t seem like much but right now, for her, it’s everything!
They’ve admitted me to the hospital, until Eisley’s arrival, whether she be delivered early or at our due date. I’m here until then. Many of you’ve asked “why did they admit you to the hospital? how is it any different from bedrest at home?” I wondered the same thing, but now that I have been here for two days (which seem like an eternity) I realize just how much I did get up at home for Chase, the long walk to the bathroom, getting up to make a quick meal, etc. Here, I am literally only up to use the bathroom and to shower once daily. They bring my water, my food, everything. I already feel the difference between being here and being home.
The hope is to get Eisley to grow. They showed us a growth chart and where Eisley has been the past month and a half. It’s terrifying. She is so far behind and now she is beginning to “flatline” which means there isn’t much progress between each week. Dr. Daye, our fms, has told us to prepare for a stillbirth. She doesn’t think she will make it 1 to 3 weeks more unless she improves.
Monday evening overnight, Eisley was monitored. Her heart rate was fairly steady at 140 bpm but showed concerning deceleration to sudden drops of 60. This is further indication that the placenta isn’t getting the proper blood flow to her. Right now we are praying for a miracle and for the placenta to nourish her enough to keep her alive until she reaches at least 1 lb 1/3. They would prefer 2lbs. Dr. Hill told us that if she can make it 5 more weeks, he believes they can deliver her with a better chance of survival.
Eisley will be monitored twice daily for one hour each.
Tuesday morning after the nurse came in to check my vitals, I laid there, crying out to God. I felt so alone because Ted and Chase are so far away and that evening I’d spent all alone. I was crying and asking Him to be with me and to help Eisley grow. As I was crying, Dr. Hill, our ob, walked in. He sat in the glider chair in the room and asked, “Jami, what do you want to see God do? What are you asking him?” I told him that I wanted to see him to heal my little girl and I’m asking him to nourish her because I’m unable to do it.
He told me, “First, its your placenta that isn’t doing it’s job. It’s not you and you can’t blame yourself. But you are asking him the right thing. For him to nourish her.” He then went on to talk about trusting God. He remembered that Eisley was our surprise baby and he said, “God’s given you this little girl and you need to trust Him regardless.” He went on to say that if she needs to be with him because maybe she wouldn’t do well in this world (if it’s a chromosome problem) then I need to trust him. He also said to keep praying and hoping that she will grow and be here with us.
I’m so thankful to have our Doctor be such a man of God. I mean, who would have thought I’d be sitting there talking about trusting God despite these circumstances with my ob doctor? It’s such a blessing to us right now, especially with the discouragement we’ve had from our fms and the neo-natilist here.
I believe God is bigger than anything any doctor could tell us. I believe that he can heal the placenta if that is what the problem is and nourish my baby girl. Please pray for Eisley for growth and nourishment and to make it’s just 5 more weeks. That’s all I can ask from you.
Please pray for Ted, Chase and I as well. Monday Ted wasn’t able to be there for the appointment with the specialist because full time college started up again. (My mom was with me at the appointment which really helped me) I have been hospitalized at a hospital 1 hour and 15 minutes away from my family which is so hard. Because of Ted’s schedule with school and mostly because of the cost of driving down, they will only be able to come down two times a week. I haven’t been away from Chase for more than a day, so this is incredibly hard. My grandparents and my mother are taking care of Chase while Ted is in school, so we do have help, which is wonderful. I just miss my family and being alone is so hard, especially right now. Please pray for strength, grace and peace for us all. Ted and I both feel so weary and emotionally/mentally worn out already, I know we can get through this, but we’re afraid and now we’re not together anymore, which makes this harder.
Please i am asking you from the bottom of my heart to please pray for our baby girl.