Lately, I’ve been one seriously emotional mess when it comes to nursing. The beginning of breastfeeding wasn’t bad for us. Chase got the hang of it within the first week and I didn’t have a problem really until he got his first two teeth (other than the crazy amount of milk… and, eh, size).
About 4 weeks ago, Chase began nursing more often during the day and seriously, I’m not exaggerating, a l l night long. I would just have to bring him to bed and continue, throughout the night, switching from side to side to try to calm him. Little did I know I was pregnant and my milk was running low.
I began to worry when I noticed Chase was thinner. I can actually see this boys ribs, which is a first! Then his pediatrician told me Chase has not gained anything, and had even lost a pound since his 7 month checkup, 2 months before. This disheartened me big time. I was worried for him and I really hated the fact that they thought it was my milk supply.
Today, we are going to begin supplementing him with goats milk. Even just writing that is hard for me. I was planning on nursing him until he was one or a few months after and now it’s ending all so quickly. My heart just breaks because I feel guilty, I feel awful for having to spring this on Chase. There are so many times that he nurses just to soothe him, calm him and I can’t help but feel heartbroken about this ending so soon.
I also feel worried about making sure he gets what he needs. With nursing, I know, without a doubt, that he is getting what he needs when he needs it. Now I feel unsure.
I am going to still nurse him until he is set on goats milk. I do have milk, just not enough to feed him throughout the day. We will supplement him with goats milk during the day and before bed, along with two or three times to nurse. He also eats baby food 3 times a day too, so hopefully he will get everything he needs!
I’m one emotional mess with this, which might not makes sense unless you’ve walked through this or something similar. Just had to get this out, see if anyone has any tips on weaning too. What’s worked for you? What hasn’t?