Dear Eisley,

(August 27)

Dear Eisley,

I’m in the hospital with you still inside my womb, fighting for life and trying to stay strong.

They tell me you are so little and too weak for us to meet you right now. They tell us there is little hope. But I am praying for a miracle to help you grow, I am holding onto hope for you my precious baby girl.

My heart is breaking because I long to hold you in my arms, to feel your soft warm skin against mine and to know you are okay but I don’t know if that will ever happen.  I long to watch you run along side your big brother and for you to know you are deeply loved by mommy and daddy. I am believing and hoping this will one day ring true.

I still feel your swift kicks and your gentle movements and I am adoring and cherishing every moment with you. With a hope for these moments to become precious memories with you by my side in the years to come.

I’m praying for you fervently, with my everything. I love you more than words can say. You are so precious to me. Eisley, please grow baby and stay strong, for your momma wants to meet you. So very badly.

I love you so much and I know that one day I will hold you in my arms and I will kiss your soft little cheek and whisper my love to you over and over and over. You are so strong and so loved.

I know He is with you in the womb. He is. It comforts me to know He is beside you in this weary time.

I’m holding onto hope for you my precious Eisley Anyalya.


Your mommy

10 thoughts on “Dear Eisley,

  1. Mari Quillen says:

    Jami, Mary and I were sitting here praying, and this song came to me, so I decided to be obedient and copy and paste the lyrics

    You are not a God
    Created by human hands
    You are not a God
    Dependant on any mortal man
    You are not a God
    In need of anything we can give
    By Your plan, that’s just the way it is

    You are God alone
    From before time began
    You were on Your throne
    You are God alone
    And right now
    In the good times and bad
    You were on the throne
    You are God alone

    You’re the only God
    Whose power none can contend
    You’re the only God
    Whose name and praise will never end
    You’re the only God
    Who’s worthy of everything we can give
    You are God
    And that’s just the way it is

    That’s what You are


  2. Donna Nefferdorf says:

    Was sent a link to your blog by a friend. Have asked our Heavenly Father, God of the Universe, to stretch out His hand of power over your womb…to restore your placenta…to increase the amniotic fluid…to nourish baby Eisley…to heal her body’s organs…to restore her fetal development…to perfect her…and strengthen her for the rest of the journey. I speak life over you…over Eisley…in the Name of Jesus…our Healer and Miracle Worker…to drive back “death” that’s at work, so that Eisley can experience the abundant life that Jesus gives. We speak increase to your womb, where there has been a decrease. We speak gain where there has been loss. May there be an explosion of the power of the Holy Spirit within you, bringing the love of God that never fails to Mommy…Eisley…Daddy and Chase! Let it be so, Lord, and we give you glory! What’s impossible for men is still possible for you oh God! Nothing is impossible, and we keep our eyes upon your lovely face, believing that your Word will not return void…that your Word will perform and accomplish all that you sent it to do. You are the Lord our God who heals…and by your stripes we are healed. We come to you as our “first resort” not our last, and have invited you into this life happening…wanting to see “life happen” by the power of your love. We bless you as these words rise into your Throne Room, as prayers rise like incense around the world on Eisley’s behalf. May they be a sweet smelling savor in your nostrils, causing your compassion and mercy to be showered down upon this family. Thank you Lord and we wait upon you, looking with the eyes of our hearts! Amen & Amen.


  3. Lauren Akers says:

    I am a very good friend of Mari Quillen and she emailed me the link to your site. I am praying for you and your family deep and there is a scripture that comes to mind that I believe helped Mari a lot and always helps me.
    -Psalm 139. 1 O LORD, you have searched me
    and you know me.
    2 You know when I sit and when I rise;
    you perceive my thoughts from afar.

    3 You discern my going out and my lying down;
    you are familiar with all my ways.

    4 Before a word is on my tongue
    you know it completely, O LORD.

    5 You hem me in—behind and before;
    you have laid your hand upon me.

    6 Such knowledge is too wonderful for me,
    too lofty for me to attain.

    7 Where can I go from your Spirit?
    Where can I flee from your presence?

    8 If I go up to the heavens, you are there;
    if I make my bed in the depths, [a] you are there.

    9 If I rise on the wings of the dawn,
    if I settle on the far side of the sea,

    10 even there your hand will guide me,
    your right hand will hold me fast.

    11 If I say, “Surely the darkness will hide me
    and the light become night around me,”

    12 even the darkness will not be dark to you;
    the night will shine like the day,
    for darkness is as light to you.

    13 For you created my inmost being;
    you knit me together in my mother’s womb.

    14 I praise you because I am fearfully and wonderfully made;
    your works are wonderful,
    I know that full well.

    15 My frame was not hidden from you
    when I was made in the secret place.
    When I was woven together in the depths of the earth,

    16 your eyes saw my unformed body.
    All the days ordained for me
    were written in your book
    before one of them came to be.

    17 How precious to [b] me are your thoughts, O God!
    How vast is the sum of them!

    18 Were I to count them,
    they would outnumber the grains of sand.
    When I awake,
    I am still with you.

    19 If only you would slay the wicked, O God!
    Away from me, you bloodthirsty men!

    20 They speak of you with evil intent;
    your adversaries misuse your name.

    21 Do I not hate those who hate you, O LORD,
    and abhor those who rise up against you?

    22 I have nothing but hatred for them;
    I count them my enemies.

    23 Search me, O God, and know my heart;
    test me and know my anxious thoughts.

    24 See if there is any offensive way in me,
    and lead me in the way everlasting.

    —Isaiah 41:10-fear not, for I am with you;
    be not dismayed, for I am your God;
    I will strengthen you, I will help you,
    I will uphold you with my righteous right hand.


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