White and black
Another attack we feel is in my health, yet again.
On the return of our Febraury outreach, I got very ill with first stomach sickness and then bronchitis for almost three months. My asthma was terrible inflared and painful.
This time around, I have strange infections. The night we returned to Denver I stepped on a carpet tack strip and three of the tacks peirced my skin, one becoming terribly infected. That was almost a month ago, and here I am on antibiotics, a gimp, and with my cheap attempt of a bandage on my heel.
Then to top things off, before I began my antibiotics my wedding ring finger became infected from my allergies to my wedding band. (Yup, im allergic to my forever to be worn band!) This immediately flared up into a nasty pus- infection just as my foot.
I am now on antibiotics, and learning A LOT. I’m learning a lot about infections, and facts and myths on how to clean them…but that is not what I am talking about.
I am learning a ton about how much God wants me to walk the talk. I can write a novel on wanting and longing to trust God unconditionally, but truly…walking this out when times like these come, it another novel in and of itself.
We by no means have this nailed down. But we’re loving the lesson. Seriously, this has been one of the most eye opening times for me.
Walking my talk.
It comes as less of a shock each time. With each attempted blow, we only turn farther in to our Saviours arms. Learning to trust Him unconditionally, with the occasional step outside of our refuge, thinking “we can do this on our own strength”. (Think again, silly ones.)
I wrote the blog below, as Ted and I are both being challenged to trust God unconditionally.
Honestly, since being back we have been hit with the most outrageous situations, ones which we think cannot possibly get any worse and yet they do.
Are current home sweet home, is in the basement of a YWAMer (& 2 other staff above). It is such a blessing to live with a kind of “family” (consisting of four boys & me), and especially ones who are in the same boat as us. It is encouraging.
Before outreach we let our apartment know (verbally) that we were leaving the country, that our place was cleaned out, that we were turning in our “30 days notice” in and we would turn our keys in on the day our lease was up (Aug. 10). We actually spoke with them twice before outreach, and it turns out, due to our ignorance of a written notice, it doesn’t matter how many times we tell them verbally that we are turning in our 30 days notice…they need it on paper. It was not their obligation to share this with us.
Needless to say we are paying for it now. We are currently still paying two rents totally out to $1,500 for rents. And can I just say, God has been incredibly good to us. He has blessed us this month with more support than we normally get.
Why am I writing? Surprisingly not for the reason you may be thinking but instead for your PRAYERS. We need them right now, hardcore.
Ted and I have spent a lot of time in prayer, because we know that we are being attacked. In one of the things the apartment manager said, really struck us and we immediately felt the enemy in this all. They knew we are missionaries, and told us to “just go and ask your church for more money”. Can’t you feel the enemy in this?!
But we are not of those who shrink back.
There were times when sitting with the managers when our flesh wanted to raise our voice, fight for this, I won’t deny that, but we walked away knowing God will settle this however He so chooses.
Thanks for listening to my babblin. I just needed to share.
“Hey Guys, we need to start praying. We’re now on empty and there’s no service for another 100 miles.”
So you may be wondering...”What ever happened with the home situation?”
- People to commit to living in our apartment before we leave, even if it is just one of our homes.
- Ted and I to get our apartment cleaned out completely and moved into our new home before outreach without stress.
- Our rent at the apartment not to be high (unfortunately this always fluctuates which should be illegal, but somehow it always happens.)
- We will trust God.
Photo: a cup of reflection tea. Taken by us last year on a weekend camping trip.
Hey Friends and Family!