two songs for your Sunday.

I hope this music blesses your heart as much as it does mine.

“In winter I believe you
In springtime I see you
It’s so good to be with you
my hope has come
Lord you make all things new
Your love is my breakthrough
Now I sing Hallelujah
my hope has come”

How beautiful! I stumbled upon this Wednesday and pretty much haven’t stopped listening to it and their ‘Why oh Why’ song posted below. Simply beautiful, amazing and oh so {true}. Cherry blossoms have always reminded me of my Eisley-girl and of hope. That is what caused me to click the video in the first place, not gonna lie. :) I’m so glad I did.

“Faith can only grow in a real tight spot, love will only bloom when it’s all you’ve got
Nothing is sweet as a broken heart, giving God praise in the hardest part
What has been done we cannot undo, but love is never lost in the face of truth
And nothing is sweet as a broken heart, giving God praise in the hardest part”

Oh my heart….

So thankful to have found this music! Let’s carry this into next week, taking it one day at time.

“Praising Him in the hardest part.”

music; held.

music.

The words, the movement, the beauty expressed, the harmonies, the emotion is can draw out of one.

I close my eyes, take it in and find myself healing.

I’ve seen God meet people where they’re at time and time again and I’ve found He meets me in music, speaks to me through music, heals my heart through music.

He meets my heart through many different types of music, both “christian” and “secular”. Since we’ve lost Eisley, I’ve gained an entire “soundtrack” or two of music that speaks to my heart. Some music people have shared with me. Some of the songs I’ve stumbled across.

Music that meets me in the deepest, darkest, most painful places. The unexplored regions of my aching heart that need healing.

I decided to start sharing some of these songs and what they mean to me.

I’ll begin with Held by Natalie Grant and the meaning below.

Two months is too little
They let him go
They had no sudden healing
To think that providence
Would take a child from his mother
While she prays, is appalling

Who told us we’d be rescued
What has changed and
Why should we be saved from nightmares
We’re asking why this happens to us
Who have died to live, it’s unfair

This is what it means to be held
How it feels, when the sacred is torn from your life
And you survive
This is what it is to be loved and to know
That the promise was that when everything fell
We’d be held

This hand is bitterness
We want to taste it and
Let the hatred numb our sorrows

The wise hand opens slowly
To lilies of the valley and tomorrow

This is what it means to be held
How it feels, when the sacred is torn from your life
And you survive
This is what it is to be loved and to know
That the promise was that when everything fell
We’d be held

If hope if born of suffering
If this is only the beginning
Can we not wait, for one hour
Watching for our Savior

This is what it means to be held
How it feels, when the sacred is torn from your life
And you survive
This is what it is to be loved and to know
That the promise was that when everything fell
We’d be held

I don’t really even know if I need to share what this song means to me. I remember hearing it before we ever walked through losing our Eisley-girl and if I’m being honest, I brushed it off. I didn’t understand it.

A few people shared it with me after we lost her. I brushed it off again because I remember thinking it was cheesy and I didn’t want cheesy, I wanted something that met my heart. One day I finally decided to look up the lyrics (I’m always look up the lyrics of a “new” song while it’s playing to see if I really like what it’s saying or if there is something I have missed)

Whoa, this song brought me to tears.

it resontated.

it spoke what my heart and mind were having a hard time understanding. i knew people who had said if we’d prayed more or had more faith and i found myself doubting myself and how much faith i had.

i battled feeling that feeling although deep down i knew there was nothing more i could have done. nothing more. i had faith she would survive. God knew my heart’s cry but sometimes a miracle just doesn’t happen. sometimes, yes even with faith, we have no sudden healing.

“who told us we’d be rescued? why should we be saved from tragedy?”

the other part of the song that met me was when it speaks of being held, throughout everything.

and oh, are we held.

 i know that without a doubt in my mind and in my heart. we are held.

tightly held, between His shoulders.

amidst the darkest, most treacherous valleys, we are held.

in our grieving and aching, we are held.

in our questions and struggles, we are held.

i’m held. i feel this now.

and when i struggle in feeling this, i still know this to be the truth.

we. are. held.

September 14th, we were held, even though we couldn’t feel it at the time, we were held. i know that without a doubt.

September 17th, as Eisley was placed in our arms… as we held her, i felt him holding us.

as we said our earthly goodbyes and parted from our daughters body until eternity, we were held.

we were, we are and we will be held. 

and you…

YOU are held. whether mountain top or the darkest valley; You are held.

You Will Find Me

Ted and I were searching for music that spoke to us where we are at right now. He found this. Amazing.

You Will Find Me

When your souls weary//When you find doubt

When you can’t hear me// Lay your troubles down

In your dark moments//When your hearts weak

Bring yourself broken // You will find me

Who wrote the rain // Who wrote the sun in // Who called your name // Where are you running // I’m gonna be there near or far // I’m gonna meet you where you are // Who wrote your name // Who wrote the sun in

When you come thirsty // When the wells dry

 When your souls dirty // I am by your side

When your faiths broken // When you can’t see

With my arms open // You will find me

You carried all my shame // When you called my name // I am not the same

Who wrote the rain // Who wrote the sun in // Who called your name // Where are you running // I’m gonna be there near or far // I’m gonna meet you where you are // Who wrote your name // Who wrote the sun in

 

 

‘Glory Baby’

Years ago when we lived in Wisconsin, my mom would drive me to school and would play Watermark- her favourite band at the time. I probably know every song word for word, and guess what?… I know their song ‘Glory Baby’ word for word. I haven’t thought about the song for years and until now, I could never relate or understand the deep sorrow and pain that went into writing these lyrics. Our Eisley is a “glory baby” and this song speaks to my heart so deeply now. And to think years ago I first heard this song… I don’t know what He is doing and sometimes I question Him a lot and as I grieve, I try to understand… but I do know that He is comforting me and bringing me peace in the most amazing ways. He is showing me He is with me as I grieve.

‘Glory Baby’ by Watermark

Glory baby you slipped away as fast as we could say baby…baby..
You were growing, what happened dear?
You disappeared on us baby…baby..
Heaven will hold you before we do
Heaven will keep you safe until we’re home with you…
Until we’re home with you…

Miss you everyday
Miss you in every way
But we know there’s a
day when we will hold you
We will hold you
You’ll kiss our tears away
When we’re home to stay
Can’t wait for the day when we will see you
We will see you
But baby let sweet Jesus hold you
‘till mom and dad can hold you…
You’ll just have heaven before we do
You’ll just have heaven before we do

Sweet little babies, it’s hard to
understand it ‘cause we’re hurting
We are hurting
But there is healing
And we know we’re stronger people through the growing
And in knowing-
That all things work together for our good
And God works His purposes just like He said He would…
Just like He said He would…

BRIDGE:
I can’t imagine heaven’s lullabies
and what they must sound like
But I will rest in knowing, heaven is your home
And it’s all you’ll ever know…all you’ll ever know…

Heavenly Father.

A song I love and wanted to share
By Jon Foreman (switchfoot’s lead singer)
‘Your Love Is Strong’
“Heavenly Father, You always amaze me,
Let your kingdom come in my world and in my life.
Give me the food I need, to live through today,
Forgive me as I forgive, people that wrong me.
Lead me far from temptation,
Deliver me from the evil one.
I look out the window,
The birds are composing,
Not a note is out of tune, or out of place.
I walk to the meadow, and stare at the flowers,
Better dressed than any girl on her wedding day.
So why should I worry?
Why do I freak out?
God knows what I need
You know what I need.
Your love is, Your love is,
Your love is strong.
The kingdom of the heavens, is now advancing,
Invade my heart,
Invade this broken town.
The kingdom of the heavens, is buried treasure,
Would you sell yourself,
To buy the one you’ve found.
Two things You’ve told me,
That You are strong,
And You love me,
Yes, You love me.
Your love is, Your love is,
Your love is strong.
Our God in heaven, Hallowed be Thy name,
Above all names,
Your kingdom come, Your will be done,
On earth as it is in heaven,
Give us today, our daily bread,
Forgive us weary sinners,
Keep us far from our vices,
And deliver us from these prisons.”