Remembering…

 

Today marks one month since the birth of Eisley. I can’t even believe it’s been one month…

Everything in me wishes I could be posting photos of my little girl from her one month photoshoot. Typically one month would be filled with learning every little thing we can about our daughter. Enjoying her every coo and facial expressions and of course sharing them with you.

Instead it’s been one month of inner turmoil, one month of the reality of the loss of our daughter sinking in with each day, one month of letting go of the dreams we had for our Eisley, etc.

This morning I noticed a tweet by a friend on mine. She noted that today is Pregnancy and Infant Loss Rememberance Day where we “remember all babies born sleeping or whom we carried but never met, or those we have held but couldn’t take home, or the ones that came home but didn’t stay. “

Throughout our journey with Eisley, I’ve met or heard of many who’ve walked a similar road as me. One where we’ve lost a child. It breaks my heart that we have that in common. 

When I heard that today was Pregnancy and Infant Loss Rememberance Day, I wanted to write a post recognizing your loss if you’ve lost a child. And if you haven’t (and I pray you never will) to cherish your time with your babies (in the womb or out).

We’ll see you again soon little ones and until then we are holding that hope very near to our hearts.

I can’t imagine heaven’s lullabies
and what they must sound like
But I will {rest} in knowing, heaven is your home
And it’s all you’ll ever know…all you’ll ever know…

(Glory Baby  by Watermark)

Have you lost a little one? If you want to, please comment so I can be thinking of you. Much love mommas (& daddys).

Milestones.

Having fun with photo booth, haha.

sweet boy. 1m 2w 4d

His eyes keep turning more blue than dark or gray.
Loving it whatever way they are.

Milestones as of the past 3 weeks:

  • sleeping and eating better. Nights aren’t too bad!
  • a lot more aware of familiar faces, voices and toys.
  • gets excited at the above. Today in walmart he was even at the verge of giggling while playing ‘peek-a-boo’. (can’t wait for the official bout of giggles).
  • found his fist which he loves sucking.
  • found momma’s hair
  • found his ears. I captured that moment on video and photo! Soon to post.
  • more excitement shown for bathtimes, ‘mr.moose’, momma & daddy’s faces/voices, swing, etc.
  • holds his head up a lot better and tummy times he enjoys a bit more.
  • cuuuudly!! (with me, mostly… we are working on him being cuddly with daddy)
  • 12 lbs 15 oz!!! (our friends here own a scale). He is evening out though and doesn’t look that big honestly.
It’s crazy how fast time flies. He is already 6 1/2 weeks. Whoa. I feel like there is more but it’s 11:13 here in MO where we’re visiting. I’m wiped.
*still writing our birth story. It’s a long process, but (finally) a good one.*
speaking of birth stories… please pray for my friend Ashton! She is anxiously awaiting her little man and needs our prayers!